I read this again (my inaugural post on this blog) and it makes me think.  I laid out where I was at the beginning of september there.  I'm three months deeper into training, three months further away from the season.  I feel and look better.  I am definitely stronger (and my weights correspond to this).  I have gained ten pounds, which is more than I gained in four years of college.  I'm learning new routines.  I'm feeling more competent on the field against all opponents.

And yet...  And yet, I think I feel even _less_ assured of making a team in April than I ever did during the summer.  I'm, yet again, in a down period.  I'm a 24-year old club team virgin hoping to make a meteoric rise.  I am trying to do this in the face of unpromising odds and a lot of hurdles.

They say that walls are there to make sure that only people who really want something can get it.  I guess writing all this helped get me back on my feet.  I already have plans to gym it up after work.  Hopefully, it'll work as it often does and I'll walk out of the gym feeling great again.  Here's hoping.

~#28