There are just some times a hard workout is all you need.  No matter the drama, the stress, the anxiety, getting your ass kicked by a lift is sometimes the best way to get past it.  This week has been rough on the home front and hitting the gym three days in a row helped me keep an even keel throughout.  Now I'm looking at a weekend with possibly some throwing work (necessary) with Nimble and maybe Toad.  It'll be good to cleat up again.  Just gotta keep on working.  I'll get there.

In related news, I was thinking about what my plans are if I _don't_ get there this summer.  Brayden had broached the subject of running a legit club team and giving it a shot and blah blah blah.  I'm...conflicted.  They're great people and I enjoy their company and we could definitely make a run at the middle as we are now.  But I don't have to say that I'm not interested at running at the middle.  I'm not sure we have the personnel to pull it off either, which means recruiting.  If we're going to do that, then we need the get the name out early.  But I'm not willing to commit myself to that team right now, nor will I be until after Tryouts for other teams have ended.  But the 7th Wheel model is pretty bad, though you can end up with some solid players.  I don't want to be part of the leadership of "the OTHER other mixed team in boston" (actually add some other's).  Picking up other team's slack can be worthwhile in any given instance but it's not a great team strategy.  So I'm stuck in this weird place of wanting to help them out if they're gonna do it but not being willing to actually help lead.  I think I'm currently solving it in my own head by saying I'll encourage them to do it, and if everything else falls through, I'll hook up with them.  Not the friendliest, but what I need to do.